How to live as medical student, wife + mother.
To choose entering medical school is not an easy choice
You must be a so called 'brilliant student'
Or it's your own ambition to be a doctor
Some said , it's their parents choice..
Many have asked themself or their friends
'Why you want to be a doctor?'
They have their own reason, and I have my own reason.
Dari sekolah men (SMKA AL IRSHAD)
Sy mempunyai pengalaman menjadi pelajar yg malas & rajin..
Sy budak asrama from form 1 till 5
Sy bukanlah top student dalam sekolah
Kamu boleh bertanya kepada kwn2 dan guru2 Irshad
But then..
At the end of Form 4 and Form 5
I realized I need to cover many things before SPM
So here comes my turning point of life..
I lost my social life..
I lost my sleep time..
I lost my meal time..
I lost some of my friends..
Just because I want to struggle for SPM
Sy tahu, ramai kwn menjauhi sy kerana sikap yg terlalu fokus pd pelajaran..
But, I never hate them..
I always want to be with them..
Bila kwn2 berkurangan
Alhamdulillah, Allah beri kesempatan utk sy lebih mendekati Dia
Dia izinkan sy bangun Tahajjud setiap malam
Menangis, dan meminta drpd Dia
Dia izinkan sy pergi surau awal
Sy boleh baca Quran sebelum masuk Maghrib
Kdg2 sempat cuci kolah surau.. (kalau motor)
Sy yakin satu perkara..
Biarlah manusia tk nmpak amalan kita
Tp Tuhan nampak..
Itu lebih baik..
Then, Alhamdulillah..
Berkat doa ibu abah.. keluarga, cikgu2 semua
I got 13 A's for SPM
Which I never dare to dreamt about it..
Sy diangkat-angkat, dipuji tinggi2 sehingga sy sendiri rasa gayat..
Abah kata 'amiklah medik.. Biju boleh buat'
Then, comes my life at ASASI UIAM
2 years.. 2 hectic years...
Sy masih aktif dalam persatuan (MEDCY) till the end of my 2 years
I want to stop, but people trust in me
So I cannot broke the trust..
Tipulah kalau sy kata sy tk pernah menangis
Menangis tu berjuta kali..
CGPA sy takkan tinggi sgt : 3.65
Tp Alhamdulillah dpt lg teruskan buat medik..
Then, my 1 st and 2 nd years at UIAM KUANTAN
Rasanya tempat paling jauh dari ibu abah
Selalu rasa rindu dgn ibu abah
Jarang sgt balik Penang..
Dah jarang melawat sekolah Irshad & cikgu2
Tngok2 kt fb je..
Kt Kuantan, tkde lah aktif sgt persatuan
Ingat nk tumpu pd pelajaran sepenuhnya..
Alhamdulillah, pre-clinical tk pernah kandas
Semua exam pass
Tp kalau Dr Tanya, memanglah ada yg lupa..
Masuk tahun 3
3rd posting.. I got married
Alhamdulillah.. tak tahu mcm mana kenal En Suami tercinta
Tp itulah aturan Allah yg sgt unik utk kita semua
Kita boleh meminta, berdoa, dan usaha
Tp kena juga redha dgn qada' & qadar
He's not a doctor, but Alhamdulillah he has completed my life.. :)
Clinical years mmg sgt penat
Compared to pre-clinical sgt jauh beza
Clinical tk boleh duk saja, kena pegi hospital belajar
Kalau tak jumpa patient betul, mcm mana nk jadi doktor yg baik & betul
Kena marah, kena maki dgn doktor dan staff tu biasa
Telan sajalah..
Lepas siang hari kt hospital, malam sambung lg study..
Tp, kalau penat sgt.. bleh tidur no harm..
Cuma tujuan belajar clinical ni sbb nak latih kita jadi 'houseman' yg berguna & berilmu..
Sekarang Alhamdulillah..
Dah pregnant
Lagi lah penat.. 3/4 times
Tp kena belajar utk kuat jugak
Biarkan org nk kata apa, tp jgn balas kata2 orang dan banyakkan sabar..
Sy tahu, ramai tk suka org pregnant sbb diorang ni lembap skit ( trmasuk sy la.. )
Tp bila sy dah rasa, mmg kena sabar banyak.
Belajar tetap kena teruskan
Dah kahwin ke.. dh pregnant ke..
Cuma keadaan saja yg lain, tp tujuan hidup kena sama
I really want to graduate from UIA with other friends inshaaAllah Amin..
Bila ditanya sy,
'Why I want to be a doctor'
Initially yes, it's my parents
Now I think it's Allah who gave me this opportunity to serve humankind,
So I need to do it for the sake of Allah..
So, tak kiralah sape pun kita
Buatlah semua kerana Allah
Bukan kerana manusia
If they hate you.. let it be
Don' t hate them back..
Wallahualam..
Just a piece from me, Hafizah Roslie & baby :)
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